My friend S posted on Facebook this afternoon, “Do all two year olds occasionally make their parents feel like complete failures? Or is it just mine?” I smiled when I read it, remembering JJ at the mall yesterday. Among other things, she knocked over a mannequin at Old Navy and refused to listen to me when I was paying for my car inspection at Sears, resulting in a rude comment from the guy helping us. Part of it is just that she’s three, for goodness sake, but it certainly made me feel like one of “those” parents who has no control over their kid.
Then we went to Target tonight, where JJ decided she didn’t want to hold my hand as we crossed the parking lot. She wanted to hold Daddy’s hand. And if Daddy couldn’t hold her hand (since he was holding J’s hand and C), she was certainly NOT going to hold my hand. When we tried to take her hand, she darted away from us right into the parking lot. Parking lot safety is a big deal to Tom and me, so we told her that if she wasn’t willing to hold our hands, she was going to have to wait in the van (with me) while Daddy, J, and C shopped at Target. I put her in the van and closed the doors, and the others went on into Target. But sneaky JJ, screaming at the top of her lungs, ran to the other side of the van, opened the automatic door, and climbed out anyway. Did I mention that she was screaming bloody murder? Oh yes. The woman in the car next to me was on the phone, watching me and laughing and shaking her head, and I could tell she was saying something about the situation to whomever she was talking to.
Hiding my smile, I put her back in the car and locked the doors this time so she wouldn’t escape. I informed her that until she was able to choose calmly to hold my hand in the parking lot, we were going to stay in the car. “I’m r-r-ready to g-g-go” she choked out tearfully. We then had a good talk about why she needed to be careful and how cars couldn’t see her because she was so small, and how she needed to trust that I was making choices to protect her. She was completely willing to hold my hand then and when we were leaving the store, so I felt good about her understanding of what had transpired.

I think one of the hardest things about age three is that they have all these thoughts and opinions, and they THINK they are big enough to make decisions for themselves. And they are, to some extent. But they are extremely limited in their understanding of the world, and their ability to make GOOD decisions for their own safety and respect and well-being of others isn’t very developed. It’s my job as her mom to teach her to choose well. But it doesn’t happen overnight. Sometimes I have to tell her what to do and expect her to obey instantly, even if she doesn’t understand.
I definitely felt like one of “those” parents today and yesterday, with the embarrassing child who makes a scene, but I love my JJ and I know that she is still learning to make good decisions. It’s worth investing time into teaching her how to choose wisely, because someday I won’t be there, telling her what to do. Hopefully by then she’ll know better than to run out into a parking lot without looking.